Help
Sign In
good ideas
December 2009 
brakes
Posted on Apr 2nd, 2009
by 
Bird
Bird
My brake light came on. I ignored it. I live on a hill. My old truck's brake light stayed on for years because of the way I parked so I figured that's just what happens--gravity.
My husband gets in the car this weekend to take it somewhere. The brake goes all the way to the floor when he pushes on it. Needless to say, the car didn't go anywhere but to the automotive shop that's situated a couple miles down the road.
They've had it all week. They called the first master cylinder they ordered for it worse than the one I had. The next day I waited in the office for two hours while they tried to put the second one on. So here we are, four days and three master cylinders later ... and I'm beginning to wonder if this brake issue has anything at all to do with the Torah Gematria I'm learning.
I think I'm done with it. My teacher has wanted all week to meet with me after work to discuss even deeper levels of understanding. I don't think I want to go any further and instead of telling him, I think it's manifesting in this outward way. My brakes won't work ... and they can't fix them ... because if they could, I would just go on the way I did before.
So I'm doing an experiment. After I clarify my intentions, I'm seeing how it changes the mushy character of my outward experience. And what do you know? Suddenly my energy is focused on (specifically) how I'm keeping my body (through several other experiences ... pointing at the moon/pattern). Maybe it's my inward experience (body/mind) that is so mushy (lol) ... and my outward experience is warped by it?
My husband gets in the car this weekend to take it somewhere. The brake goes all the way to the floor when he pushes on it. Needless to say, the car didn't go anywhere but to the automotive shop that's situated a couple miles down the road.
They've had it all week. They called the first master cylinder they ordered for it worse than the one I had. The next day I waited in the office for two hours while they tried to put the second one on. So here we are, four days and three master cylinders later ... and I'm beginning to wonder if this brake issue has anything at all to do with the Torah Gematria I'm learning.
I think I'm done with it. My teacher has wanted all week to meet with me after work to discuss even deeper levels of understanding. I don't think I want to go any further and instead of telling him, I think it's manifesting in this outward way. My brakes won't work ... and they can't fix them ... because if they could, I would just go on the way I did before.
So I'm doing an experiment. After I clarify my intentions, I'm seeing how it changes the mushy character of my outward experience. And what do you know? Suddenly my energy is focused on (specifically) how I'm keeping my body (through several other experiences ... pointing at the moon/pattern). Maybe it's my inward experience (body/mind) that is so mushy (lol) ... and my outward experience is warped by it?
Access: Public
What's the Torah Gematria, Bird? And thank goodness the brakes don't work sometimes. So we can change our path and walk perhaps in a different direction for awhile. (and hopefully we're not driving the car when the brakes fail, no no.)
Torrah gematria is a way of joining science (especially physics –since that's my teacher's passion) and religion under one flag. I spent an hour trying to think of a simple way of explaining it. I can't help but tell too little in an attempt to keep from saying too much.
Funny that my most sensitive friend just called asking the make and model of my car. He is trying to solve the part of the problem he is privy to. He must feel me working on my part!
Okay, I've been thinking about this a lot. I guess what makes it hard to describe is the history because it's all in his head and not in mine. But it's really cool the way the whole thing fits together and what he does with it to travel through time … and cultures. For instance, the ancient Hebrews have a language to explain what the dark matter in a black hole is and how we create reality by vibrating (modern string theory) with sounds and e-motion. He assigns values to the different frequencies of different words, translates the ideas he wants to meditate on back into Hebrew, and by the triangulating it all through the Torrah, he gets insights. And they are mind blowing! His work is deliciously complex. Seamless? Watching him is like standing on the edge of a precipice trying to work up the courage to jump into a spring fed creek.